Now that I realize what the state of my art is in, I really don't know what to do with my life.  Yes, I know I'm broken record not knowing what I need to be doing with myself is the most frustrating thing.  I have job shadowed massage therapy and I can't afford it or physically handle the job.  I think I may be too frail for it.  I talked to my counselor.  It seems the only job she suggests is to be a kindergarten teacher or pre-K teacher.  High school possibly, but it would be a difficult job to find in the area.  I may have to leave and I can't afford to leave my town.  So, I'm hoping to at least aim a little lower and settle.  I seriously regret ever pursuing a degree in art.